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Finding My Way
I’ve regarded myself as a climate-activist-in-training for the past two years that I’ve been living in Albuquerque. And that “training” produced plenty of learning: **Everything is inter-connected—gender, air, racism, water, justice, electricity, economics, political power, greed, religion, Earth, insects, agriculture, caste, land, relationships, oceans, war, transportation, social life, media.… **Climate solutions are the most important thing to focus on now. There is great
Esther Jantzen
Sep 18, 2022


Climate Activism: Paying Attention & Learning
The grim news, dear friends, is that we have only about ten years to save the Earth’s atmosphere from becoming so damaged that there would be no possibility of its recovery. That’s 2020 to 2029. As I wrote in my last post, at the September 2019 Climate Strike demonstration in Albuquerque NM I woke up to understanding that urgency. I believe that information. I’m horrified. And the information is changing my life plans. It’s making me pivot away from what I thought I’d do. N
Esther Jantzen
May 30, 2020


Woke: The Education of a Climate Change Activist
About six months before COVID-19 changed our world forever, I was house sitting in Albuquerque, NM. Somehow I learned there was to be a Climate Strike demonstration. Gee, I thought, it’s been a while since I’ve taken to the streets in support of a good cause. I’ll go to soothe my guilt for not being very politically active for years. It’ll make me feel useful. Quickly I persuaded an 85-year-old friend, Barbara, to keep me company. That was September 20, 2019. Unbeknownst to
Esther Jantzen
May 4, 2020


Opinion: How to Get to Conversational Equity
Three of us sat at a outside café in a charming town on the California coast. I was in my last weeks of a house sit in nearby Sebastopol CA. A breeze blew from the Pacific and the air was fragrant with linden trees in bloom. I knew Linda well; I’d only met Nancy briefly. Linda knew both of us. It was a common configuration: one person introducing two others to each other. Three friends at a Point Reyes café I’d been looking forward to our gathering. I travel and socialize a l
Esther Jantzen
Sep 28, 2019


*The Most Important Book I Read in 2018
Marko Pogačnik’s Sacred Geography: Geomancy: Co-Creating the Earth Cosmos (pub 2007) is the most important book I read in 2018. I heard Marko present his perspectives at the “Co-Creative Spirituality: Shaping Our Future with the Unseen Worlds” conference in Findhorn, Scotland, in September. I should explain that I was blown away by the whole conference. Every day I went back to my room at Cluny, mentally reeling from all the presentations, wondering if I could hold any more n
Esther Jantzen
Dec 31, 2018


*Letting Go of Stuff 2: Empty at Last
“We store ‘incompletes,’ things that we do not want to handle, and put [them] into the ‘back of our minds.’ They don’t go away, as we might hope. They surface, usually in unpredictable ways and timing, giving us the opportunity to face and complete what we have started.” —John-Roger, DSS Here’s Part 2 about my personal challenges in letting go of stuff. In Part 1, I wrote about my tears and indecision last summer while clearing out my storage un
Esther Jantzen
May 20, 2018


*Letting Go of Stuff 1: Gnashing My Teeth
“Be wary of stuff. Be careful what you purchase, what you save, what you pack into plastic storage boxes. Stuff can hog-tie your life.” —Hallelujah Haymaker Note: This post was drafted in July 2017, but it felt too personal to share then. “You’re doing major emotional work,” said my friend NK, cracking an egg into the frying pan on the stove. I was staying in Southern California with her for a couple we
Esther Jantzen
Apr 4, 2018


*Sex Equity: I’m More Than Embarrassed…
July 27, 2017 in Oregon Today I did something that shocked me. My behavior was reprehensible and, I hope, out of character. I’m only telling it now because it brought something long-buried in me to the surface; I have a new awareness and I’ll do my darnedest to learn from it. Here’s what happened to the best of my memory—and I’ve changed the names: At 9am I drove to the Toyota dealership where I had a service appointment. A young black woman came out to the drive-in area and
Esther Jantzen
Jul 27, 2017


*Books: The Brillance of “Being Mortal” by Atul Gawande
Have you had the experience, upon finally closing a book, of being speechless? Or being deeply grateful (and perhaps envious) because someone had both the capacity to think so clearly about a fundamental topic and the good fortune to have the support needed to make a book flawlessly engaging and imperative? I recently finished Atul Gawande’s Being Mortal: Medicine and What Matters in the End. I know it has won accolades and been on the NYT best seller list for months; I know
Esther Jantzen
Apr 17, 2017


*Crestone, CO: My Day as a Corpse
“Do you need someone to be the corpse?” I asked the Care-of-the-Body team instructor. “Because if you do, I’ll volunteer. I’d like to doze a bit.” That was hardly an exalted motive, I admit, but it was honest—early afternoon is my usual nap time. “And may I remain clothed?” I pleaded. Yes, was the answer to both questions. I was at an extraordinary training session. I mean, how many people do you know who’ve been trained in how to support a family in creating a sacred space t
Esther Jantzen
Feb 6, 2017


Equine-Assisted Therapy in California’s High Desert
Yesterday was a first for me: I experienced an equine-facilitated therapeutic session led by my friends Erin and Wes. I came away from the session in love with two horses: Phoenix, a dark-brown thoroughbred racehorse who was deserted by unknown owners in the desert and survived by eating gravel until my friends rescued him; and Mystery, a black horse who just showed up in Erin’s life, lost and alone. Phoenix, the beautiful former race-horse I came away from the session smelli
Esther Jantzen
Jun 27, 2016


Alice the Mazda—at 445,000—Bites the Dust
Last night, I got a sad phone call from Kris. My beloved car, Alice, was about to be towed to a salvage yard in the Pasadena CA area, he said. I stayed on the phone a long time with him, talking about Alice. He was as bereaved as I. He too loved her deeply, though he’s only owned her for four years. We discussed Alice’s virtues: her lean, polished body; her never-repaired transmission; her amazing 445,000 miles of service; her willingness to go above and beyond; her responsiv
Esther Jantzen
Apr 6, 2016
House-sitting Tips #1: Prepare Your Medical Emergency Information
Recently I was chatting with an 85-year-old cousin, a medical doctor. He’s a widower now. He was very interested in how I worked out the logistics of my nomadic lifestyle—for example, how I manage things like snail mail and medical checkups when I house-sit for people in places far from my previous home. I explained I use my daughter’s address as my permanent address; she generously, periodically, forwards my mail–bless her heart! I explained that I had a doctor in California
Esther Jantzen
Mar 26, 2016
Thoughts on the Hesston, Kansas, Mass Shooting
I kissed my mother’s forehead, told her I loved her, and said goodbye at her nursing home in Hesston, Kansas, on Wednesday, Feb 24. Emphatically she ordered, “Come back and visit me!” Mom rarely speaks a coherent sentence any more. I was impressed that she got out those five words. She doesn’t call me by name, but I think she knows who I am. I’m quite certain she enjoyed my two-day visit. She’s 97 now. Then I drove to Newton, KS—down Old Highway 81, recently renamed Hesston R
Esther Jantzen
Feb 28, 2016
*Wrestling with Writing: Baby Steps to Create Suspense
One of the big challenges I have in my writing…heck, why use that euphemism?… I’ve got a problem, a serious problem, a deal-breaker-for-a-reader problem: I don’t yet know how to create suspense well and I want my book to be page-turner. Recently, though, I’ve found a few small clues that I may be able to use toward solving this problem in my work. I read a knocked-my-socks-off, non-fiction, children’s/young adult book about the history of the atom bomb. It’s riveting. No kidd
Esther Jantzen
Apr 30, 2015


*Easter Sunrise Service on Vashon Island
I got up at 5:00 am in order to make coffee, feed the cats, shower, and cook kale with scrambled eggs. I got in the car and entered the Burton Camp address in my GPS. I was the last to arrive at the circle of logs around a flickering fire in the middle of the woods at the edge of the bay below a pink streaked-sky for the 2015 Vashon Ecumenical Easter Sunrise Service. (That’s a lot of prepositional phrases in a row.) The campfire around which we gathered on damp logs at Easter
Esther Jantzen
Apr 7, 2015
*Happy New Year’s “Questolutions”
Date: January 1, 2015 Location: Synergia Ranch, Santa Fe, New Mexico New Year’s Day is my favorite holiday. Why? Because what could be better than welcoming the future by remembering old friends, saying good-bye to what’s past, starting afresh, kissing and hugging those near you—and celebrating all that with the entire world? (For really, doesn’t the whole world use the Gregorian calendar and arrive at New Year’s on the same day? Oh, I know there’s the international date-line
Esther Jantzen
Jan 1, 2015
*A Fresh Start with Social Media
Date? Wednesday, November 26, 2014 Location? Boulder, Colorado—House- and dog-sitting in the horse-country foothills below the Rockies Reading? 2014 Children’s Writer’s & Illustrator’s Market The year 2015 is fast approaching. Inspired by articles in this writers’ guidebook that I’m reading, I’m treating myself to a fresh start in social media—a new website with a new blog—thanks to my friend Virginia Farrington of http://simplewebsi
Esther Jantzen
Nov 27, 2014
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